New Year, New Me?

As we all rush to find around the last few days of each year trying to closeup loose ends we also cannot help but to be fascinated with the planning out of how the next year will be for us. Before the New Year even be, planning of its arrival is nothing less than extreme. Girls are out shopping for new dresses, shoes, sparkles, champagne, and finally finding the perfect place to celebrate the coming of a new year with all of your close loved ones. But the planning for the new year does not stop there...resolutions are next!

Most of us start the new year with high hopes on  going to the gym everyday, going on a restrictive diet, putting more money in savings, quit doing this or that but does any of it really last? So when each new year begins we can't help but look on our last resolutions and see how miserably we have failed but yet we are all so inclined to wishfully announce a new resolution for the new year!!!

I am not one to think I am any different from everyone else so I realize I have stated many many many new year's resolutions and have not followed through but this year I am hoping to set myself up for success on my resolution. My resolution for 2011 is to really find out who I AM. I come to this resolution based on how this past year has panned out for me. I feel I have been stuck in a hamster cage just spinning my wheels because I can't say I want something if I don't know deep down what it truly means for me to have it. (Does that make any sense to anyone?) This year I was jumping from idea to idea on what I would be when I grew up but it seemed nothing ever stuck. And now I am asking myself why??? Ever since graduating college I feel I have tried to take the safe route to a career...and by safe I mean the career that others see me succeeding in. I know me, and I'm not typically one to take the safe route but more so the road less traveled. For instance, a very dear friend of mine sent me a message at exactly the time I needed to hear it and this is what she said to me, "...you do the things we all dream about doing but don't even think about doing." To me that spoke volumes, I have tried to fit the mold of the norm when in fact that mold does not fit my vision. I don't think I am meant to follow the rules of life-like everyone else because when I start doing that I feel like I am losing every ounce of myself. So for me, this past year has been me trying to wear the shoe that doesn't fit but only doing so because I thought that was what was expected of me. When in reality all that people expect of me is to be exactly who I am; random, clumsy, energetic, shy at times but also the one that can keep everyone laughing. Sadly none of those words I just stated can come close to describing how I have felt in the past year.

The new year always signifies new beginnings for everyone and I am not going to let another year pass without pushing myself to my limits. This year is going to be about me reconnecting my relationship with God as well as finding out who Kimberly really is and what will be will be!

See ya soon in the new year!

~Kimberly

"It takes a lot of courage to release the familiar and seemingly secure, to embrace the new. But there is no real security in what is no longer meaningful. There is more security in the adventurous and exciting, for in movement there is life, and in change there is power."
~A. Cohen