[/caption]Today I was asked the question "What do you want to be when you grow up?" and I can't help but to hesitate because I don't want to be just one thing. I don't want to stop once I have mastered something. I want to continually evolve into a better employee, person, friend and spouse. I know I cannot be the only person on this earth that wants to have an ever challenging life, and I don't mean in the sense of never being able to pay your bills or eat a hot meal, but having the desire to challenge myself and those around me. I think once you stop challenging yourself what's the point? Or even once people stop challenging you, are they signaling to you that you are the holder of all knowledge? Let me stop right there, when people stop questioning and challenging others it not only inhibits their growth but also the growth of their peers. So in order for us to evolve as a more advanced species we have to ask questions, and people have to be willing to find the answers. Basically I enjoy the challenge that hard work and persistance give me, as should anyone else looking to better themselves. One thing I know for sure is that I want to be the best person that I can be when I grow up.
Secondly, I want to find my place in this world. (I touched on this in my last blog so I'll keep it short.) I want to enjoy what I do for the rest of my life because what is the point of being unhappy. My motto lately has been to be happy in this life because this is our only life on this earth. So why should I sit in an office day in and day out knowing that I am not using my skills to their full potential. Why am I letting my mind sit idle while punching in numbers and making phone calls? I keep asking myself why other people cannot see my passion and skills? On that note I am going to take a little advice from my mother and take this to the lord and hand it over to him. I have my job by honing my skills and knowledge as well as changed my perspective on my future employer. I am focused on 'becoming a man of value' and not on the success that will come from the happiness of being passionate about my job.
And lastly, when I grow up I want to live the life I was always meant to live. Do I know what exactly that life is? No, but I do know that I will know when it is right. I take pride in the journey of my life thus far. I've been knocked down a few times, but I'm proud to say that I've always gotten up, and I've always stood taller. Most people thank the people who kept their heads above water entire life, which is very necessary, but I like to thank the people who doubted me, pushed me down and have yanked the rug out from underneath me. Because of them I have found my weaknesses and have been able to turn them into strengths, realized that being at the bottom and looking up is not the worst place to be, and digging deep and finding a means to an end is a much sweeter way to succeed than any hand out that is out there.
All in all I want to be ME when I grow up.
~Kim